not big enough

About a week ago, Brandon let me borrow his jacket. We were outside and I was cold. Knowing him, he probably noticed before I even thought to ask for it. When I slipped it on, it was so big. It did not even begin to fit. My wrists were too small to stop the sleeves from swallowing my hands whole. At the moment, I didn't care though. I was warm and that was enough.

The jacket reminds me of the life God has called me to live. Recently it has felt way too big for me. Girls have come to me this year with hurts deeper than I could have imagined. God has given me opportunities to be a part of their lives and their search for healing. Wait. Bringing girls to the throne for healing? Now, that is WAY too big for me. I myself am so quick to forget Whose I am. I forget that my Dad is the designer of the human heart and the cosmos. There are days that my own struggles are too much for me to bear. I certainly cannot heal wounded hearts, erase years of past regret or give hope for the future when hate is all one has known. Praying for the salvation of others? Who am I to pray those prayers? Only by His grace am I beginning to discover who God is myself. These tasks are huge.

And that's exactly how it was meant to be. Praise God. He is the only one that can handle the hardest things in life. However, he has created us and called us his own. We are nowhere near big enough to save people from whatever they are going through. God just wants us to point them to the One who can.

When I tried to return Brandon's jacket, he told me to keep it. "When you wear it, everyone knows that you are mine."

The things God sets before us are purposefully larger than what we can handle. When we step into the pain of another, God wants both us and the other person to know and never forget that we are His. And He is more than big enough.

God, thank you for not expecting me to solve life's problems on my own. Thank you for allowing me to participate in Your glory by pointing the people around me to You. Thank you for flooding me with your grace. And thank you for a man who reflects the very essence of who You are.