Unworthy

Holy cow.

Time is flying.

Arriving back from Santa Cruz a month ago, I am already three weeks into my sophomore year & everything is in full swing. This summer, I was admitted into the Biomedical Engineering department here, and I am really enjoying my classes this semester! It was a relief coming into school and already knowing the ropes, but even still, there have been a lot of changes and new things for me this year. For one, I am living on the opposite side of campus this year. I miss my old roommate Michelle and all my friends back on East campus a lot. But it has been a blast getting to know an entirely new group of people. Oh! My sister is living in the dorm right next to me!! Who would have known!? Having her with me has been another big change--it's been a lot of fun though. Also, I have a job this semester. I'm tutoring 4-5 hours a week with the university's tutorial center. I loveee tutoring. :-) But the most exciting thing so far has been the privilege to lead a Cru-sponsored freshman Bible study on East Campus with Beverly. After praying for the girls who would show up all summer, God has completely blown our minds with the response we have received. The number of people interested in Cru on East almost doubled from last year & we are all extremely excited about what God is doing there. We have a solid nine girls in our Bible Study right now & they are amazing. I cannot wait to live life with them over the next 3-4 years.

To give some closure to my time in Santa Cruz, I will simply say that I am a new person. God ripped my heart into pieces and mended it back together in a completely new way. Many times I find myself doing things that were way out of character for me before this summer. I guess when God grabs hold of you, crazy things certainly do happen. For example, the other day I found myself promising this semester to God. I want Him to have my full heart and my full attention, especially as I begin to share my life with the freshmen in my Bible study.

One word that sums up my feelings this first month of school?

Unworthy.

Unworthy of leading a Bible study. (very much so)
Unworthy of the blessings He has rained down upon me this year.
Unworthy of friends that seek to glorify God with their lives.
Unworthy of freedom from sin.
Unworthy of the promise of eternal life.
Unworthy of even this short time on earth.
Unworthy of such a wonderful God.


Well, now I am off to class. Yee-haw!
I hope you all have a wonderful September!

-ash